Sunday, January 29, 2006
Dedication Notebook
Pambungad: Trip ko na namang magsulat (mag-type) sa Filipino kaya pasensya na lamang sa mga FANS ko mula sa ibang panig ng mundo... CHOS!
Kani-kanina lang, may naramdaman ako sa tiyan ko. Tila natatae ako. Tulad ng madalas kong gawin kapag tinatawag ako ng trono (ko), naghanap ako ng babasahin. Nagtungo ako sa aming munting study room at tumingin sa helera ng mga libro. Naagaw ng isang munting kwaderno ang aking mga mata. Malamang, ang pabalat nitong punung-puno ng Chucks ang uamakit sa aking paningin. Iyon nga ang dedication notebook ko noong hiskul. Dedication notebook - yan yung pinagpapasa-pasahan ng mga tao kapag malapit na ang graduation. Tapos magsusulat sila ng kung anu-anong pambobola tungkol sa taong nagmamay-ari ng kwaderno. Dati na-kornihan ako doon. Pero matapos ang ilang araw, pinasulat ko na rin yung mga kaklase't mga kaibigan ko. Marahil, yan ang dahilan kung bakit hindi man lang nangalahati yung notebook ko. Late na kasi ako nagsimula.
Nang maupo ako sa aking trono (at syempre, business before pleasure), binuklat ko ang kwaderno at sinimulang basahin. Ilang beses ko nang nababasa iyon at ilang beses narin na sa CR ang venue. Pero kanina lang talaga tumama sa akin ang katotohanang isa akong mangiiwan. Oo, leaver ako (pero hindi sa DotA).
Ang dalawang pinakamahahabang mga entries sa aking dedication notebook ang tumalakay sa pangiiwan ko sa ere. Sila ang dalawa sa mga pinakamalalapit kong kaibigan noong hiskul. Well, yung isa naging kasintahan ko, at yung isa naman, friend lang talaga. Pinagtuonan nila ng pansin kung paano nga ba ako mang-iwan. Nagsisimula yun sa pagiging close. Tapos, susundan ng panahon na close na nga talaga. Tapos, bigla raw akong mawawala, mang-iiwan. Biglang mawawala. Fade-out. Fade-away.
Matapos kong basahin ang dalawang entries na ito, sinara ko ang kwaderno at nag-hugas ng pwet. Nawawalan na kasi ng dugo yung mga binti ko. Pero sapat na panahon na iyon upang matanto ko kung bakit nga ba nagkakasuliranin ako sa mga malalapit kong mga kaibigan at ka-relasyon. Naisip kong masyado lang talaga akong intense. Ako ang tipo ng tao na madalas ibigay ang lahat. Dahil dito, nararamdaman ng mga kaibigan ko na special sila sa akin, para bang may special treatment akong ibinibigay sa kanila (cura personalis). Pero totoo namang special sila sa akin, kaya okey lang. Nagsisimula ang problema kapag humihina ang intensity ko. Nawawala yung special treatment at minsan, wala na talagang treatment. Mas kapansin-pansin pa ang pagkawalang ito hindi lang dahil biglaan ang paglaho kundi dahil biglaan din ang pagsimula ng "special treatment".
Bigla akong napaisip, bakit nga ba nawawala ang intensity ko? Napapagod ba ako? Nagsasawa ba ako? O marahil, isa lang akong halimaw na nabubuhay sa paglamon ng tiwala ng iba at pagkatapos mabusog ay hahanap naman ng ibang mabibiktima? Hindi ko alam kung bakit nga ba ako nawawala pero sigurado akong hindi ang mga nabanggit ko ang dahilan (o baka sinasabi ko lang ito).
Ang isa pa sa mga natanto ko ay kadalasan, nagsisimula ang pagiging close ko sa isang tao kapag natutulungan/nadadamayan ko siya sa panahon ng problema. Tila malakas yata ang tiempo ko. Hindi naman sa inaabangan ko silang magkaproblema. Sa katunayan, nais ko talagang tumulong. No strings attached (pero ayon sa konsepto ng ganid, meron laging strings). Tutulungan ko siya (generic na siya). Tapos magiging close kami. Tapos kapag ok na siya sa problema niya, bigla akong mawawala. Ayon sa isa sa mga nakatala sa dedication notebook ko, ayon daw sa akin, inaruga ko siya, pinrotektahan, hinintay gumaling, at saka hinayaan upang matutong muling lumipad. Nasasaktan daw siya noong hinayaan ko siya.
Marahil, ganiyan ang takbo ng karamihan sa mga relasyon (pagkakaibigan) ko. Naroroon ako kapag may problema sila. Tapos kapag ok na siya (sila), mawawala kung pagkalinga ko.`Tapos may ibang versions pa yan. Minsan, good friend lang ako kapag may problema. Nandun ako sa bad times pero wala sa good times. Akala ko dati, ok lang yun ngunit mali pala ako. Ang pagiging inconsistent ko ay nakakasakit ng ibang tao. Hindi pala sapat ang mga panandaliang pagkalinga. Ang tunay na kaibigan ay naririyan lagi. Ngunit mahirap yung laging intense. Minsan, nauubusan na rin ako. Syempre, dahil marami rin naman akong kaibigan (Mr. Congeniality?!), mahirap maging intense sa iilang tao lamang, dapat intense to as much people as I can. E may pagka-tamad pa naman ako, kaya madalas, ningas-kugon lang ako.
Ngayong ako'y naghahangad na mag-mature, tila isang magandang katok sa ulo ang pagbabasa ko ng dedication notebook. Ngunit hindi sapat na malaman ko ang aking mga kamalian. Uulit lamang ang lahat ng mga sakit kung ako'y hindi magbabago. Nawa'y matauhan na ako nang ako'y 'di na makasakit pa. Gusto ko namang lumigaya at magpaligaya nang tunay.
ON OTHER NEWS:
I was browsing the Webpage of the 2006 Bloggies Awards when I this blog that had a post about Jollibee. I don't want to get into the details so just read the post. But in a nutshell, the blogger and her friends ate at a Jollibee branch in there place and found the food a little repulsive. Initially, I was outraged by their comments about out own brand of fastfood. But as I read on, I slowly realized that there is much truth in her words. I quote:
We became such Ugly Americans because this food was so beyond anything we could have guessed it would be. We couldn't stop. We were embarrassing ourselves and still couldn't stop. Every bite was another shock.
"This all tastes exactly like school cafeteria food."
In fact, the food in the caf is way better than Jollibee food. Caf meals (AMPC!) are healthier.
"I wanted to shout, 'Stop eating this! What are you doing to yourselves?'"
"I just wanted to stop the children from eating it."
I think that though having Jollibee branches in other country is something to be proud of, the people in Jollibee should be wary about the food they serve not only abroad but here as well. Comparing with other fast food restaurants, Jollibee is not faring well in terms of the quality of food. I hope and pray that those in charge would realize that it is the Filipino name that is at stake here.
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
GANID
Patalo na naman ako... Lagi na lang... Bakit kailangang may pumigil sa kaligayahan ko? Mali bang lumigaya ako? O mali lang ang hinahangad kong kaligayahan? Minsan na nga lang e.. 'Di pa pinagbigyan... Ganid na ito... Pero masaya ako sa pagpapakaganid e... Bawal ba 'yun? Titigilan ko na ba ang pagkamakasariling ito? Naririyan ba ang tunay na ligaya? O tanging nasa pagtupad sa mga pansariling kagustuhan matatagpuan ang kaligayahan? Kung saan ka masaya, doon na rin ako..
Nasa akin na ang laptop ko! Yahoo yahoo!
Long test ko mamayang 1:30pm sa Physics 122! Boohoo boohoo!
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
No Laptop
I just finished taking my Physics 43 exam. As usual, I have a cocktail of sensations flooding the channels of my soul. Emptiness. Happiness. Disappointment. Relief. Thirst. Hunger.
I'm tired of saying that the lesson to be learned is not to cram. It's futile to once again say that walking over hills in advance is better that scaling an Everest in the last minute. Marahil, matigas lang talaga ang ulo ko...
To those who are asking me for declamation pieces despite this earlier post, I am very sorry for not being able to attend to you for the time being due to several reasons. First, my laptop is not by my side for the whole week since it's with Rache (Fil14 classmate) who is editing our Adarna video. Therefore, I am incapable of checking my blog for requests and I am unable to encode the rest of the pieces. If accumulating 125 unread mails in three days is not enough testament for my lack of net time, then I don't know what would. Second, I am plagued with two long tests this week. Well, the first one is over but the other one is equally deadly for sure. So for those whose needs are not satisfied by the pieces I posted, I am sorry for my tardiness.
ON OTHER NEWS:
Zombify any photo using Photoshop.
I hate it when I can't remember the title of a tune that got stuck in my head. Good thing there's the Song Tapper. Just tap the rhythm of the song in your spacebar and it searches its database of about 9381 songs. It worked when I tried tapping the "Happy Birthday Song", but I don't know if it can identify songs like "My Humps" and the classic "Otso-Otso". But if you're into public service, you can teach it a new song.
Matapos ang lahat.. LD pa rin..
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
The Hallway Will Paint Tomorrow This Afternoon
Tomorrow this afternoon, this hallway will paint use the other gate.
This is random text. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang magsulat ng walang katuturan. Bakit, kailangan ba na may kahulugan ang mga pangungusap na ito? May kalayaan akong punuin ang talatang ito ng mga kaborlogan at kalokohan. Sapat na siguro ito. Well, if you think hard enough, you'll find out why. So think! Return 0.
Monday, January 16, 2006
Hiatus
I was in hiatus for quite a while (considering that I have vowed to blog everyday) especially last week. I was busy doing special stuff. I will not elaborate on that. In all truth and honesty, I am in no mood to blog today. One reason is that I am behind on most of my subjects and I am feeling quite guiltyfor that, no thanks to the voice in my head that shouts "Get off your ass and start acting like a FREAKIN' STUDENT!" isn't helping AT ALL. Nonetheless, my week started very well thanks to Maja's debut last night. I had a really really really good time. Pramis. But I won;t delve on the subject matter tonight, maybe later when all my worries have come to pass.
On more pressing matters, I'm still unable to properly make a separated webpage for the declamation/oratorical pieces. But fear not! I have uploaded them (as poorly formatted HTML documents) into my server, Therefore by clicking on the links below, you may find what you are looking for.
More to follow...
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Discipline is What I Lack
Discipline. It's what keeps you up when you have a paper to cram. Better yet, it's what keeps you from a situaton where you need to cram. It is also the voice that tells you to drink your medicine after each meal. It's what keeps you from arriving in class after the second bell. More importantly, it spells the difference between passing and failing.
Moral of the Ps121 Long Test (and the 2 years worth of mediocity): Discipline Yourself!
ACET Results are out! The results are posted outside Ateneo's Blue Eagle Gym. But I am not sure if they are already available online. Unfortunately (and fortunately) my brother did not pass. For those who want to know if they passed or not, just tell me and I'll be glad to be of any help.
I have just started to compile and encode the collection of declamation and oration pieces. The first batch may be up by the end of the week. But there's still something that's bothering me: What is the difference between declamation and oration
The first prayer meeting of the year was great. It was lead by my shepherd: Kuya Emmans. What-a-blessing...
ON OTHER NEWS: A good way to look at past year is to study the significant stories that made 2005 a special year and what better way to read the top stories of 2005 than to view National Geographic's Top 10 News Photos of 2005
The list includes the picture of a giant squid and an super-realistic robot (as pictured abve). The robot is the woman on our left. Freaky!!!
Friday, January 06, 2006
The Internet is Broad But Shallow
I have a 3-page (double-spaced) essay due 7.5 hours from now and I am only halfway through. The culprit: the shallowness of the internet.
CASE #1: My friend Anne asked my help to find the weather forecast from January 1 to the present. I thought it was an easy task. After conducting a web search, I found out that our very own PAGASA do not have an archive of past weather forecasts. They only have the forecast for the day itself. Being THE weather bureau of the country, I expected that they should have at least a temporary archive for the forecasts of the past 5 days or even a projection for the coming week but it seems that even their search engine is in cahoots. Do they lack the proper funding to provide quality information to the people who need them the most? Oh come on! Give me a few days off school and a couple of free meals and I'll do it for them! Sheeeeesh!!
Btw, I was able to procure the needed information via Typhoon 2000. Unfortunately, the weather station is not based in NCR but in Naga. Of course, beggarscan't complain.
CASE #2: Apparently, one of the top referrers to my blog is a search on Google about declamation pieces. This post was the cause of the entire ruckus. Recently, two have messaged me in my YM asking for some help. They were looking for declamation pieces. Either because I'm a Good Samaritan or I'm just bored (most probably it's the latter), I helped these two to find a declamation piece. Of course I recommended the favorites such as this, this, and this. It's a good thing that I still know some from the good old days. My personal favorite would still be Shylock's speech in The Merchant of Venice.
In light of the recent demand in declamation piece, I have decided to help my fellow students by putting some in this blog. I'll have to add a separate section for it. So for all ye Google crawlers out there, your search is about to end.
Now it's time to go back to the Fil paper...
LDLDLDLDLDLDLDLD
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
First Day Blues
It was the first day of class. Nothing much really happened. But it is quite notable that Mrs. Lalu-Santos was gracious enough to start the new year with a 22-point essay during my Filipino class (the first class of the day). Besides having to shake my brains from slumber I also had to suffer a day-long bout with an upset stomach. Yup, it wasn't really my idea of a good first day. But it wasn't really that bad. Mr. Yu ended Chem class 10 minutes before class and Doc J didn't show up for Physics 121 (long test na sa Sabado!!!). The day ended with me feeling dizzy after the Matanglawin StoryCon.
On pres time, I'm still feeling kinda dizzy. Got a cure?
ON OTHER NEWS: Japan still tops my list of weird (but cool) countries with stuff like salad-flavored water, the personal karaoke, and my favorite, the Nap Helmet (as pictured above).
Are you aching to have your own ninja shoes? AHA! Wait no longer! This is the only place on earth where you can buy NINJA shoes from Japan!
Do you always forget where you placed your cellphone or the keys to your dorm? Here are 4 Steps to Boost Your Memory.
The easiest game on the net: 1d Tetris.
You have a bike. So what? Get your own Sideways Bike. Now that's KOOL!
Monday, January 02, 2006
LD
I may officially be sick. I hope not. Tomorrow's a school day for me and for another. *cough cough*. Nontheless, LD.
Support the Cause!
Here's another way to support the Leader Be Light Campaign! Since almost everybody's into the baller i.d. craze, I decided to make an online version of the ballers called the webbands.
Putting one in your blog is very easy. Just copy [Ctrl+C] the piece of code below and paste [Ctrl+V] it to your template right under the <body> tag. Webband name is the one below each picture.
<script type="text/javascript"src="http://milkolate.pansitan.net/webbands/[REPLACE WEBBAND NAME HERE].js"></script>
If you have any questions, problems, or suggestions, just post a comment or email me. For those who decide to put a webband on their blogs, please leave a message in the chatterbox. Thank you.
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P.S. sorry I can't seem to layout this post in a neater way. The float property of this container is a little off. Bear with it until I can figure it out. Ciao!